There are no disappointments in the transparency of despair; only the obsessions of lost experiences exist to remind us that the more we get obsessed the more we lose our hopes. It is inevitable to desire something and not search for it, but the line between desire and fix idea is thin, if there is […]
I always thought I was torn between the unattainable and the available, but at the end of the day, we have two choices – to keep longing for the unattainable and feel lonely, or settle for the available and feel lonely again. Every well – considered decision seemed to take away the excitement of the […]
In the most unexpected moments of new promises and inconvenient self-realizations, I think of you. I think of ancient moments which I used to find more beautiful than Heaven. Now they ruin everything I try to build. I think of you thinking that I know of you more than I understand. Every hope is a […]
Trying to find myself seemed like a waste of time, sometimes it’s wonderful to get lost in the spell of the moment. I was standing there, completely real and flawed and I felt like I was myself more than ever – emotionless, soulful. It was unbelievable to me how someone as beautiful as you was […]
I spent all day walking and only got to where I started with no clue about the future, with long lost dreams and strangers I refuse to get close to. There is so much life. And so few people who get it. I’m looking at the old trees, they are probably used to the cold […]
I was wasting my time looking for the meaning of life, searching for love and fulfillment – by the time I find them, I have lost them again and I start looking again. It’s a constant battle between mind and heart, between disappointments and hopes, I am carried away for indefinite. I stare at myself, […]
I observe the people, the judgements, the expectations, the lies. I keep getting energy in all colors, now it’s orange. I count to seven and I stop. It’s my favorite number. I wish I could have my dream come true as soon as I stop counting. But I am still here, I am not alone, […]
